Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Domo waxes nostalgic

I was in choir when I was a kid.  Junior high, high school, even a cappella in college.  And watching Glee gets me all misty.

In tonight’s finale, there was a scene that reminded me forcibly of a particular Moment In Time during my own high school choir experience.

The two romantic leads were alone together, right before they had to go onstage.  Rachel said, “Break a leg!”  And Finn replied, “I love you.”

He smiled his 16-year-old smile at her, and she smiled back; then doors opened and the lights hit them, and they had to go on.  And I actually said, out loud, to my television: “Girl, you will remember that moment for the rest of your life.”

When I was 17, I loved a boy in my choir, and he loved me.  We had The Drama in the way that only a pair of star-crossed teenagers who already had significant others could.

Domo’s senior year coincided with the mammoth motion picture experience that was Titanic, and during the spring choir show, the theme from that movie was naturally front-and-center.

Now, I didn’t get the solo, because our teacher couldn’t very well give it to just one girl—that would have shown FAR too much favoritism.

But my senior solo came directly before it; I sang “The Morning After” from The Poseidon Adventure.  Then I was forced to recite the old Titanic lady’s dialogue about it having been 84 years and how Titanic was called “the ship of dreams.”

Then, mercifully, I was allowed to exit the stage while all the other girls in every choir sang “My Heart Will Go On.”

So there I was, all but alone backstage in the dark, wrestling with what would be the climax of my drama with my very own Finn.  I was graduating soon; I still (sort of) had a boyfriend; prom was coming up soon; I was a mess.

And to this day, I don’t remember what, exactly, was the trigger that night.  But somehow I found myself at the very back of the stage behind the scrim, and there was Finn on the opposite side of the stage.  And we saw each other.

And with that impossibly cheesy music going on on the stage, we literally ran to each other in the filtered half-light and crashed together, holding on for dear life.  And when he said he loved me, I said it back.  And then he kissed me.

And I will remember that moment for the rest of my life.

I’m sure non-choir kids have those spotlight moments in their lives, too, but there’s just something about being backstage and 17.  Part of you never gets over it.

And I’m glad there’s a show that can bring that to life again.  That’s TV at its best—showing (and in some cases, reminding) us what life can be.

Life is a series of scenes that play out over years, and at the end we’ll each get our highlight reel.  And I know that in mine, all of the best scenes will be set to music.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Just Checking In

Isn't it sad when bloggers get a new blog and forget all about their first one?

Don't worry.  One day I'll figure out a way to blend the two blogs, or just import all the content from this one onto a new one and start afresh.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

When it rains, dude

My air conditioner is on the fritz.

I'm getting worn out by the weight of being so searingly angry and wounded.

Soon enough, I can tell, carrying the anger will stop being worth it and I'll put it down.  But the Awkward is going to endure for a good long while, that's already in evidence.  Pretending to Be Okay in front of everyone is really, really tiring, and there will be times when I just can't manage it, until I actually am okay again.

But seriously?  The air conditioner?  I almost hit it with a brick.  I'm hanging on by a very thin thread over here!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

SHOCKED AND APPALLED

Well, apparently I had quite the wrong end of the stick when it comes to my breakup.  The full venting is located on my double-secret probation blog, but I have to say something here, too.

Question: Is it normal, a mere five days after breaking up with someone you have purported to respect and care about for the past twelve years, to go on a date with the new girl at work?  And then to go on several more after that, with no intention of stopping?

Is it normal to take her to a party with all of your friends and family, less than two full weeks after said breakup?

What kind of a person DOES that?

Moving on is part of life, and screws fall out all the time---the world is an imperfect place.  I get that.  I was planning on moving on myself, after a decent amount of time had passed.

His dating a girl (whom, logic dictates, was essentially waiting in the wings) so quickly is just ugly, and mean, and disrespectful, and cold, and it means that I can never be friends with him again.

I can't be friends with someone who values and respects me so little, and is so unaware that his recent actions serve mostly to humiliate me in front of all of our friends.

I don't even want to know someone like that.

Which is going to be really awkward for all our friends.  Sorry in advance, guys, but it's not my fault---this one is all on him.  I have suffered the many and varied shades of his idiocy for a long time now, and willingly.  I was willing because I loved him, and I had faith in him to be more careful with me than he's been with past girlfriends.  Because it's me.

But I'm just not capable of getting over this last bit.

I AM SO SMART

I AM SO SMART

S-M-R-T

Given that this was the first time I've played bar trivia since the team name "Trent Lott's Dreaming of a White Christmas" was socially relevant, I'm going to go ahead and do a happy dance for my part in winning 2nd place and a $50 gift card to a downtown bar tonight :D

YAY TRIVIA!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Poor Slow Domo

Good Lord am I out of shape.  I'm ashamed to say I had to get off the bike and walk for a little ways up a hill this evening.

But at least I went riding!  It was fun, for the most part, and I think I'll stick to some less hilly parts of the neighborhood until I'm in a bit better shape.  I'm gonna be sore as hell tomorrow.

Little bit worried about weird sounds the chain is making.  I'm going to have to get one or more of my bike-wizard friends to take a look at it.  I hate the idea of something being wrong with my shiny new toy, but I'm sure it's nothing too serious. 

Between that and the 18,000 errands I ran this weekend, I am one dog-tired Domo.  Buenas noches a todos.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

I GOT THE BIKE!

It's the best, I love it.  I'm a little worried that it seems to skip gear 7 when going down from 8; it just skips right over to 6.  But over time I'll learn how to fix little things like that, and in the meantime it's just awesome.

It's in the shed right now, because obvs I'm not going to leave a gorgeous piece of machinery like that out in the elements, to get stolen or rained on or pooped on by birds.  It's safe and sound in my shed, looking purple and pretty and so ready to ride. 

I've got my ridiculously padded bike shorts, I've got my helmet, I've got my water bottle and the arm band for my iPod.  Let the working out begin :)

In small doses, at first, but going further and further before I know it!